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I
couldn't sleep after I got off the phone
with Dee so I called Chaz and told him
what happened. I don't know why I turned
to him, I just feel like since he came to
me for advice about Becca, you know, maybe
he could help me out. He listened to what
I said and then he asked me something that
just blew me away. He said, "Why don't you
trust, Dee?"
I
started to say that I did trust her but he
wouldn't let me finish. He said, "Bull...
if you really trusted her then why are you
believing all this stuff that your cousin
told you? Do have any reason to believe
that Dee wants to break up with
you?"
I told
him, no. So then he asked me to put away
all the doubts and wait to find out what's
going on from the only person who matters
in this whole thing... Dee.
Then I
asked him why he thought she was so quiet
in car and why she started crying on the
phone. "What the hell difference does it
make what I think? The only thing that
matters is the truth, not someone's guess
what the truth might be."
Well
that sure got me thinking. I mean, I can't
tell you how much of my life I have spent
listening to other people's opinions of
what might have happened. Chaz is
absolutely right about this. Why should I
get myself all nuts wondering what really
happened? That's plain crazy. None of that
matters. What matters is that I care about
Dee and I do trust her. I believe that if
she had something to tell me, especially
something like that she wanted to break up
with me, that she would talk to me about
it. No way would she be telling other
people. And she certainly would not choose
Juan to talk to! Hello! She doesn't even
know Juan. It doesn't make any sense to
think that in the five minutes she spent
in the car with him that that's what they
would talk about. I must be
loco to have even thought that
could be true...even for one
second!
I
thanked Chaz because without talking to
him I'm sure I would have been up all
night imagining all kinds of craziness.
Now I am just going to sleep and I will
talk to Dee when I see her.
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