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It's
been ten days since I asked Chaz out and
he turned me down. It's been a tough ten
days. I've been really upset. Why? Because
I really really like Chaz and I couldn't
believe that after all I went through with
my parents to fight for the right to go
out with him, then to have him say that he
only wanted to be friends! Well, it was
just about all I could take! Now my
parents don't trust me. They grounded me
and they probably think I'm some kind of
slut or something. JoAnn accuses me of
being in love with Chaz. I don't know if
I'm in love or not. I don't even know what
that means. And Chaz is hardly talking to
me. All right, well, I'm not exactly
talking to him either. This is a total and
complete mess!
Chaz
looked so cute during English today. He
was wearing this blue shirt that makes his
eyes look like a summer sky. I know it
sounds incredibly corny but it's true. He
looked like he wanted to talk to me after
class but I just couldn't take it so I ran
off to the library. And he followed me. he
came in and said he wanted to talk to
me.
I
did not want to get into any kind of
discussion with him. I thought I might cry
in front of everyone so we went outside.
He
told me how he really feels. Which is that
he likes me a lot. More than a friend.
More than he's ever liked any other girl.
This whole thing was him telling me what
he thought I wanted to hear because I said
something that I thought would keep me
safe from my feelings.
It
felt so good to hear him tell me this.
Then he asked me how I felt and I just
told him the truth. That I really like him
as more than a friend and that I really
would like to go out with him. Then he
took my hand and he kissed me!! It was so
wonderful. You know, I'm sure there are a
whole bunch of other things I'm going to
have to work out with my parents about the
fact that Chaz is not Chinese, but your
know what? For now, I'm just not going to
worry about it. I think I'm in
love!
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