Miguel's Journal



Entry #11: Like a knife in my heart.


Something was going on with Dee the other day. It was strange because everything was cool and then Victor gave us a ride from school. We just stopped for a little while in town. It was raining and Dee didn't want to come into the Quik Stop with me. So she stayed in the car with Juan. They were listening to the radio. She was cool when I jumped out of the car but when I came back, about 5 minutes later, she was all quiet. I asked her if she wanted a chocolate chip cookie, 'cause I felt like she needed cheering up or something and I know she loves chocolate chip cookies, but she didn't want any.

When I asked her if she was okay, it seemed like she waited a long time before she answered. Then she said she was fine, you know I know Dee and there was something in the way she said, "I'm fine" that made me think that she was not fine. But I decided not to push her. I figured she'd tell me when she was ready.

She might have just been feeling sick or something.

My cousin Marita called me up much later that day. She said she had just heard that Dee wanted to break up with me. I told her that she had heard wrong because things between me and Dee were cool. Then I asked her who she heard this garbage from and she said she heard it from Flora who said she heard it from Juan who said that Dee had told him herself.

"And when did this mysterious conversation happen?" I asked.

Marita said that Juan said that Dee talked to him about it while they were in the car waiting for me to come out of the Quik Stop.

Then Marita said, "Didn't I tell you not to get involved with her?"

I didn't want to hear any more. I felt like someone had grabbed my heart and wouldn't let go. I told Marita it was a lie and that I would get to the bottom of this. Then I hung up and called Dee.

I told her that I heard something about something that she told Juan the other day and I wanted to know if it was true. She didn't say anything for a minute. I thought maybe she had hung up, but she was still there. When she finally talked she said that something had happened but she couldn't tell me. I told her that whatever it was, we could work it out, I just needed to know from her, in her own words, what was going on. Then she started to cry and she said, "I'm sorry Miguel. I can't talk to you right now. I'll see you in school tomorrow, okay?"

I said, okay and she hung up.

I sat there with the phone in my hand. I couldn't think straight, you know? What the hell was that all about? What happened that Dee couldn't tell me about? Was it true, what Marita said? Was Dee going to break up with me? Is that why she was acting so weird when I got back in the car? Oh, man! I swear I don't know what's going on. Sometimes when things are going along so great, all of a sudden something happens and you feel like you just got a cold knife in your heart.

I need to talk to somebody! Can you help?




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